the silence

the silence
it roars
scaring the words back into my throat
the silence
it stabs
don't you know it is a knife?
the silence
it is not
because it does not know how to be

Forever

religion is what happened when humans looked into forever and said "i want that"
forever is the unattainable
when I look at forever
when I want forever
it seems ridiculous that I
a mortal, so simple an young
could even consider
forever
could even approach, imagine
as if my speaking the word, thinking it
did tarnish the meaning
the depth

Velociraptor Awareness Day

today i would like to bring your attention to a grave problem facing our country
velociraptors
every year people in our country, around the world, live in fear of velociraptor attack
more information, as well as helpful tips, pictures, and vides about raising awareness and protecting yourself from velociraptor attackcan be found here:
http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=138094716222781&index=1
stay safe!

What If

for every decision
there is a what if
the opposite conclusion
lingering long after
and the question is
whether the universe of what if
festering in your mind
exists only there

insecurity

insecurities are emotionally restrictive
they can make a person seem neurotic or just
completeley nuts
but everyone
has at least one insecurity
the difference
is whether yours has been exploited recently

It's like a metaphor

You hear it all the time
metaphors
the seasons, an apple, a swing
metaphors for life
I have a postulation
everything
is a metaphor for life
and I plan to prove it
or at least support it with evidence
and you are going to help!
think you have an exception?
comment it
and I will post with a way that it is a metaphor for life
or admit defeat!

Fear, Shame, and Guilt

Generally we find
Fear, Shame, and Guilt
at the gym
in the cafeteria
in front of the mirror
the exploitation
of insecurity
for profit
for diets and clothing and makeup and surgery
I am not above it
I have not been above it, to say
I still have
fear, shame, and guilt
it is very similar
the reason
and I feel it today

Today in class I felt unwell
it seemed that my digestive system was not
accepting
of my lunch
dammed Mango Tango
anyways
we were discussing body image
and we were asked
"who is fully content with their body, does not want to change anything"
raise your hand
and I missed the moment
and now I feel
fear, shame, and guilt
because my fear
is that one day I will not love my body
and my shame
is that I said that I did not
and my guilt
is not raising my hand

Looking Forward

To tonight, the weekend
To finding out about that camp job
To the next warm sunny day
To important packages in the mail
To Birthdays
To Visits from friends
To adventures
To opportunities of a lifetime
To summer break
To fun at camp
To a lot of reading
To the return of that show, and the other one too
To seeing you again outside of school
To that class, that looks really neat
To the other one that sounds interesting
To the next break, and the next
To success
To acceptances
and maybe the rejections too
To more learning
To practice and training
To celebrations
To working long hours
To making a difference
To doing what I love
To happily ever after
To the sunset
and everything in between
the days and the seconds
the time this takes
the next post too
but mostly today

Sunlight

A while back
I decided, as I do sometimes
to look up something random
I am not solid on the original inspiration
but I was spurred to write today
by my conversation with James
(as well as, I admit, the beautiful sunny weather today)
about random knowledge
something I sometimes pursue
whether to satisfy a curiosity
or for really no reason at all
so today I wanted to talk about Human Photosynthesis, something I googled
a while back
after, if I remember correctly, a Bio class
now, quite a few pages came up when this was searched

and although Answers.com is against the idea
there are proponents
namely, this lovely fellow

Hira Ratan Manek(Picture from the "Center For Human Evolution")
apparently has been living on the sun's light for months at a time
in an interview by "New Connexion: Pacific Northwests Journal of Concious Living"(http://newconnexion.net/articles/index.cfm/2004/11/manek.html), the first question is "Hira, you stopped eating solid food in 1995 and have baffled the doctors and scientists who have studied you during water fasts of 211 and 411 days. How do you manage it?"
that, is a good question
now, I do not believe this for a second, but this guy, still as prominent in the proposal of human photosynthesis as the day I fist looked it up,
promotes the ancient art
and references ancient sun worship
as well as a story about two people who lived for 50 years without food
so, if you want to test it out
stand in the sun for 10 to 15 minutes
every day right around sunrise or sunset
eat less food
and drink "solarized water"
which you leave in a glass jar in the sun
for the best effects
add gemstones